"moving back"

your figure is out of my mind..
sometimes you seems like to be so nice to me..
but you seems like to be cold in uncommon times..
you make me to get a war in my mind and heart..
and i wonder, is he really love me or not..?
you always do like that,,
you always make me to get frustration of that cause..
now..maybe i choose and take this way..
wish that this way is the best that i choosed
i'll move back..
try to never wish his love come to fill my empty place in my heart..
but..honesty,i still doubt for it...
is this really the best way?
do i have to move back??

and i just can wonder...

"what is your real feeling..?"
i always wonder with that question..and this question has ambigous meaning..that's mean this question is not just for one person..hihi..actually i put my trust in two person who i loved..i also have ever put my love in them..but,i wonder,are they really love me..?when you can say that you love me..only love me all the way..?..or i just always wish by impossiblity..only them that know what are their real feeling...i just can do what i want to do..i just can wait..i just can enjoy what they do to me..ya.. i just can enjoy for it..and i just can wonder..more and more..
:(

back to the eve's life...

i'm so sory that i've left this blog since about two weeks ago..it's caused i'm so busy with my mid test..and during two weeks, i've faced many things..i'll press it to share in this blog, because if i write all that happend,maybe this posting will be very long...
first..i had finished my midtest on last thursday, April 23rd, and by Allah blessing i hope it will be ok..amin..hmm..oia..there's something important that i have to share in this blog..on Monday,20 April, i had beach party with my family friend DEKONSTRUKSI to celebrate our birthday..and that party is soooo great!!we really really have fun!!and just for your information, that i was one of the even organization of that event..hihi..i'm so thanksfull because almost all have came to that party..heheheh...i'll share the photo...


"this is my wonderfull life that i have and i share into it everyday,everytime.."

and i really really have fun...want repeat this event more..hihihi..
oke..next even....after i had finished my midtest,i went to my village, which is Puerto Rico..heheheh..Puerto Rico in another word i mean..actually that is Purwokerto..hahaha..but there is some of my friend has been misguided..he believed when i told i want to go to Puerto Rico..hahaha..very fool things..hahahah!sorry Tandi(my friend) and Lutfi for that lie..hahaha...!
intermezoo i went to Pwt (short name of Purwokerto..) just with my mom and dad..my brother didn't join with us because he has to work and work...huh..!i went there to visit my grandpa..he has been sick strock since a year ago...so poor..i'm so sad if i remember his condition..hiks..
but i met my cousin there..i'm also so happy to meet them..i'll share the photos...

they are a few of my cousins...(yellow shirt= Gian,baby blue shirt=Gita--> Gian's sister,red shirt=Elva,and the yelow white shirt is Nesya,Elva's old sister..)


"Gian and me" -> "Nesya, Me, and Elva"
hmm..i will continue to write this blog latter...byeee...

having family fun on sat nite!

on this sat nite..i was hafing fun with my family,except my brither,,because he'd to work!a lil bit dissapointed..but,for all,i really want to say thankyou to my daddy and my mommy who have let me to get some more fun on this saturday nite..heheh..love you dad...love you mom...and of course love you brother..and i really miss you..



"they are most my lovely persons..my dad n my mum.."



"this is my only lovely car..which can bring us everywhere we want..hehe"


hmmm..my old shoes!

uts..

dari tanggal 13 - 24 april, uts diselenggarakan..
hari pertama,tgl 14, uts PA..huwa..jelasin tema sampe bego..and this hard day just passed away!!!
hope tomorrow will be more better!..amiin...

PA6 membunuhku...

sabtu : dari pagi pergi ke rumah asdos buat asistensi tema design PA6, awalnya gue ambil tema barongsai..ternyata barongsai itu termasuk buatan manusia...jadi ga baik kalo dijadiin tema..huwaaa...mau ga mau gue harus ganti tema..hiks...sekarang gue ambil tema rempah-rempah..gue ambil tema kayu manis.(apalagi coba..?!)sumpah ya..bingungg...kayaknya otak gue udah di set buat ngedesign bangunan dengan gaya from follow function, sekarang gue kelabakan banget mikirin tema..hoo my God...
minggu : bangun tidur langsung googling, cari data sampe sore ttg kayu manis..ga ada daur nya,ga ada siklusnya..damn!mau nangis...but i must be ready for tuesday..which is the day is PA6 midtest..hiks...

ayolah berdo ajah supaya lancar2 ajah..amiin...

spend valuable time with my cousin

destination : Mall Kelapa Gading..(again),main destination @Gramedia matraman, i was trying to fing a book which tell about Barongsai story..but i got nothing..hihihi..so,we just got a lunch together @foodcourt Gading III!and i bought a new neckless..hihihi..

having fun..and it's so awesome!!

first destination...(2.45 PM,,from my house..) to Starbucks @Lapiaza Gading..to prove the issues that today is free hot coffee and iced coffe in vote day..just by showing our pinkie with it's ink..and the issues is true!!hihihi..

next destination (8.15 PM,,from Gading) to Grand Indonesia..
and this place is really really awesome..being in this place, feel like being in the various countries in the world...in each spot in this place has the effect of different countries based on its characters which want to be shown..

got the new tights and new mix style..hihi..

today i get a new tight..and then i mix my skirt (which is a gift from Dizzy..),with my mom's bolero..hhihihi..taraaaa...this is the mix style..

Allah masih sayang Aku..

Allhamdulillah wa syukurillah..pertama-tama banget yang mau gue ucapin buat Sang Pencipta adalah kata-kata itu..hari ini gue udah bener2 ditunjukin keeksisan Dia bagi kehidupan kita..Dia menyelamatkan gue dalam sepersekian detik dari sebuah container..

kronologi ceritanya.........

Tadi gue balik dari kampus sama temen gue bertiga, Lulu, dedes, gue..(akhirnya pulang bertiga lagi..(udah lama ga pulang bertiga niyh geng rawamangun!)seperti biasa gue nebeng lulu, which is mobilnya itu mobil kecil Atoz. (Bisa bayangin gak kalo ketabrak container segede itu)
kita naik tol dari tol depan Untar, karena menghindari macet. Dari awal kita naik tol didepan kampus, temen gue yang nyetir udah ngedumel "niyh apa2an siyh truk dibelakang klakson terus..ga sabar banget..". cuma kita teruus ajah jalan. Sampe kita turun dr tol,di turunan jatinegara pisangan, temen gue yang mengemudi mobil itu (oia,namanya lulu..dan untuk penjlasan posisinya, dia menyetir, gue disebelahnya sebagai co-driver, dan penumpang nyonya besar nya si dedes..) agak ngebut saking keselnya sama truk itu..(truk = container yang terkutuk itu). lulu ngebut dengan tujuan biar tuh container duluan dan ga nglakson2, nah pas turun,temen gue langsung ambil jalur paling kanan, dan ga tau apa, gue pun yang dibagian kiri ga sadar kalo tiba2 ada container gede nyalip mobil gue dengan kecepatan tinggi, dan membuat mobil gue banting setir ke kanan dan berenti, beberapa detik kemudian tuh kontainer lewat nyalip mobil gue trus nabrak mobil sedan depan gue yang jaraknya cuma kurang lebih 10 m dari mobil kita..Ya Allah..Subhanallah..Dia masih nyelamatin mobil dan seisinya...mobil sedan depan gue remuk sampe ke dorong ke samping ke jalur tengah yang ada mobil lagi jalan juga..jadi kalo ditotal ada dua atau tiga mobil penyok akibat tuh container terkutuk...baru kali ini gue melihat kejadian tabrakan beruntun bener2 dengan mata telanjang gue yang dilihat dari jarak deket..astaghfirulloh...
tapi untungnya kita bertiga selamat..Ya Allah..Alhamdulillah..cuma itu yang terus gue ucap buat ungkapin kesenangan gue..Allah masih nyelamatin nyawa kita..dan yang kuasa banget..seperti nya Allah membantu lulu untuk membanting setiran ke kanan supaya tuh container ga nyerempet mobil kita..karena lulu sendiri mengakui, dia reflek tiba2 banting setir ke kanan trus berenti sebelum sekian detik tuh container lewat nyelip dan nabrak mobil depan kita..dan untungnya, tuh kontainer ga sedang membawa barang-barang..kalo ga, bisa2 tuh barang2 jatoh nimpa mobil kita..Subhanallah..Allah bener2 sayang aku..Allah bener2 masih ngingetin aku kalo Dia itu masih eksis di kehidupan kita dan ngingetin kita kalo jangan pernah lupain dia..

astaghfirulloh..hari ini bener2 hari yang miracle buat gue..sekali lagi yang bisa gue ekspresikan adalah ucapan Alhamdulillah wa Syukurillah...
Allah udah mulai sering nunjukin ke eksis anya di dunia..kita sebagai umatnya,haruslah cepat-cepat sadar sebelum Dia yang nyadarin kita duluan..

worst trafic i ever known!

sumpah..hari ini gue bener2 mengalami macet yang paling parah yang pernah gue tau..bayangin ajah, gue keluar kampus (Kampus Jaket Biru tercinta di jl. kyai tapa grogol) jam 4..dan lo tau baru sampe rumah gue jam berapa.. (which is rumah gue di rawamangun!),jam 8 malem gue baru sampe..4 jam lebih..damn!kalo waktu segitu gue pake buat ke bandung atau ke bogor,udah bisa buat bolak balik tuh kayaknya..kaki gue dah mau putus rasanya nginjek kopling,rem,kopling,rem..mabook! dan parahnya, selasa nya adalah mata kuliah yang bener2 penting semua dan ada tugas semua..huwaaaa...mau mati suri ajah gue rasanya..trus bangun lagi hari rabu..hiks..sampe rumah, mandi, makan, trus nugas...fiyuuhh...just can think positively..and hopefully that the experience with the distress in the early will bring out the very meaningfull success in the future..amin..

berbuat dosaaaa..

Today i have class like unusually..karena biasanya hari sabtu gue libur..tapi hari ini beda, ada tambahan kuliah di kampus, karena dosen SPESIAL mata kuliah perancangan arsitektur 6 gue ini baru bisa hadir hari ini dan ngasih kuliah di luar jam kuliah biasanya..hmm...agak kesel siyh,bete, karena jam hibernasi gue dipake buat bangun pagi..ga cuma itu..udah gtu pake ngumpul tugas..alhasil harus begadang..bendungan!!(kalo dinggris nya damn!)hahaha! capek!!tapi sama sekali ga sia-sia siyh, gue bisa dapet ilmu banyak dan lebih ngerti maunya si pak prof dibanding sama dosen yang kalo ngomong "so what?" ke muridnya yang abis presentasi analisis tapak waktu itu (haduh!bad memory!) suka nyolot..huh..di kuliah tambahan ini gue bisa ngerti arti tema buat design, pokoknya ga useless deh..udah gtu pembawaan prof. Gun enak banget, adem, nyantai..ga setegang seperti apa yang gue denger dari senior2 gue..dia baik..asik..meskipun dia alergi banget ngomong bahasa indonesia sama kelas kita..so, in Studio of Architecture designing 6th, we have to speak english..each tuesday and thursday, which is this class schedule, that day are become english day..hihihi..serasa sekolah di luar negeri gue..ya..pokoknya intinya gue ga sia-sia deh buat dateng kuliah tambahan hari ini..it/s so usefull..justru nyesel kalo sampe ga dateng..(agak mendramatisir)hahah...

Trus pulang dari situ..gue dijemput sama si anak buah papa dua orang..hahaha..serasa anak presiden ajah..tapi anak buah papa ini emang udah kenal gue juga..jadi udah kayak temen ajah..kebetulan mereka lagi ada di sekitar grogol, ya udah deh mereka mampir sekalian jemput gue..hehhe..trus pas dijalan pulang diajak beli Jco Donut... huwaaaa.... mau nolak,ga enak,,tapi..hahaha..(sok sok mikir,padahal setan udah bener2 menguasai hasrat gue buat nerima dan hajaaarr bleeh!haha)..lagi-lagi berbuat dosa..(kenapa dosa?)karena emang makanan yang bahan bakunya dari tepung itu adalah pantangan buat gue..dan buat semua orang,,cuma pada bodo amat tuh orang-orang..setiap gue kasih tau, pasti jawabnya"yah..ga bisa ah ninggalin roti.."atau "yah,gue kan tiap hari makan roti,,gimana doonk?ah biarin ah..kalo makan mah makan ajah,,ga usah dipantang-pantang.."huh,,ya udah lah ya,terserha ajah..toh gue cuma mengingatkan..padahal kalo gue mau jujur,gue juga berat banget ninggalin itu.tapi demi kesehatan,ayok lah...meskipun kadang-kadang melanggar..hihi..tapi tenang ajah..ada penawarnya...


taraaaa....ini niyh bahan-bahan yang menjadi konsumsi wajibku setiap hari..ada prodetoks sebagai alat membantu gue buang air setiap pagi dan membuang bahan2 makanan yang salah gue makan..selain itu ada air yang warnanya ijo, "air comberan"kalo kata anak-anak cowo temen kampus gue..haha..ini air super green,,khasiatnya ga jauh beda sama air klorofil,,cuma lebih bagus ini..(anjrit..gue promosi banget..!don,murahin don produknya,,kan udah gue bantu promosi..)haha..trus satu lagi tuh yang kayak minyak ikan, itu namanya mayo..buat pemecah lemak..hahaha..udah ah..kok jadi promosi..ya udah deh..jadi, dosa yang gue perbuat hari ini adalah memakan Jco dan Iced Chocolate nya jco..damn!!yummy!!

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i'm djanut..i made this blog just want to share my life story..hmm..yupp..you can see the tittle of it,all of what happened in my life is the eve's life..hihiihi..(sok bahasa inggris ah..!)ya udah lah ya..let's start to share what happened in the life!the hard life actually..hahaha..