"moving back"

your figure is out of my mind..
sometimes you seems like to be so nice to me..
but you seems like to be cold in uncommon times..
you make me to get a war in my mind and heart..
and i wonder, is he really love me or not..?
you always do like that,,
you always make me to get frustration of that cause..
now..maybe i choose and take this way..
wish that this way is the best that i choosed
i'll move back..
try to never wish his love come to fill my empty place in my heart..
but..honesty,i still doubt for it...
is this really the best way?
do i have to move back??

and i just can wonder...

"what is your real feeling..?"
i always wonder with that question..and this question has ambigous meaning..that's mean this question is not just for one person..hihi..actually i put my trust in two person who i loved..i also have ever put my love in them..but,i wonder,are they really love me..?when you can say that you love me..only love me all the way..?..or i just always wish by impossiblity..only them that know what are their real feeling...i just can do what i want to do..i just can wait..i just can enjoy what they do to me..ya.. i just can enjoy for it..and i just can wonder..more and more..
:(

back to the eve's life...

i'm so sory that i've left this blog since about two weeks ago..it's caused i'm so busy with my mid test..and during two weeks, i've faced many things..i'll press it to share in this blog, because if i write all that happend,maybe this posting will be very long...
first..i had finished my midtest on last thursday, April 23rd, and by Allah blessing i hope it will be ok..amin..hmm..oia..there's something important that i have to share in this blog..on Monday,20 April, i had beach party with my family friend DEKONSTRUKSI to celebrate our birthday..and that party is soooo great!!we really really have fun!!and just for your information, that i was one of the even organization of that event..hihi..i'm so thanksfull because almost all have came to that party..heheheh...i'll share the photo...


"this is my wonderfull life that i have and i share into it everyday,everytime.."

and i really really have fun...want repeat this event more..hihihi..
oke..next even....after i had finished my midtest,i went to my village, which is Puerto Rico..heheheh..Puerto Rico in another word i mean..actually that is Purwokerto..hahaha..but there is some of my friend has been misguided..he believed when i told i want to go to Puerto Rico..hahaha..very fool things..hahahah!sorry Tandi(my friend) and Lutfi for that lie..hahaha...!
intermezoo i went to Pwt (short name of Purwokerto..) just with my mom and dad..my brother didn't join with us because he has to work and work...huh..!i went there to visit my grandpa..he has been sick strock since a year ago...so poor..i'm so sad if i remember his condition..hiks..
but i met my cousin there..i'm also so happy to meet them..i'll share the photos...

they are a few of my cousins...(yellow shirt= Gian,baby blue shirt=Gita--> Gian's sister,red shirt=Elva,and the yelow white shirt is Nesya,Elva's old sister..)


"Gian and me" -> "Nesya, Me, and Elva"
hmm..i will continue to write this blog latter...byeee...

having family fun on sat nite!

on this sat nite..i was hafing fun with my family,except my brither,,because he'd to work!a lil bit dissapointed..but,for all,i really want to say thankyou to my daddy and my mommy who have let me to get some more fun on this saturday nite..heheh..love you dad...love you mom...and of course love you brother..and i really miss you..



"they are most my lovely persons..my dad n my mum.."



"this is my only lovely car..which can bring us everywhere we want..hehe"


hmmm..my old shoes!

uts..

dari tanggal 13 - 24 april, uts diselenggarakan..
hari pertama,tgl 14, uts PA..huwa..jelasin tema sampe bego..and this hard day just passed away!!!
hope tomorrow will be more better!..amiin...

PA6 membunuhku...

sabtu : dari pagi pergi ke rumah asdos buat asistensi tema design PA6, awalnya gue ambil tema barongsai..ternyata barongsai itu termasuk buatan manusia...jadi ga baik kalo dijadiin tema..huwaaa...mau ga mau gue harus ganti tema..hiks...sekarang gue ambil tema rempah-rempah..gue ambil tema kayu manis.(apalagi coba..?!)sumpah ya..bingungg...kayaknya otak gue udah di set buat ngedesign bangunan dengan gaya from follow function, sekarang gue kelabakan banget mikirin tema..hoo my God...
minggu : bangun tidur langsung googling, cari data sampe sore ttg kayu manis..ga ada daur nya,ga ada siklusnya..damn!mau nangis...but i must be ready for tuesday..which is the day is PA6 midtest..hiks...

ayolah berdo ajah supaya lancar2 ajah..amiin...

spend valuable time with my cousin

destination : Mall Kelapa Gading..(again),main destination @Gramedia matraman, i was trying to fing a book which tell about Barongsai story..but i got nothing..hihihi..so,we just got a lunch together @foodcourt Gading III!and i bought a new neckless..hihihi..